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Ugh this  ”stupid problem”. 

I have a pair of TOMS that my brother gave me for Christmas and I don’t know what to wear them with. I mean yeah skinny jeans would be fine but I feel really awkward. 

Got to love it. 

Fighting with my brother on Facebook about opening a door in the heat. 

Ugh whatever. Lately it’s really the only communicating we do. Kind of sad…

I sometimes wear my brother’s clothes. 

Well the full story of him sleeping in his bathroom happened like this:

At 5:30am my mom is waking up for work when she hears retching downstairs. She goes and finds my brother head first in the toilet. She was concerned and kept asking if he was okay. He replies with “Yeah baby I’m drunk”. My mom and my dad clean him up and leave him there on the floor passed out. 

This only adds more ammo for my parents in their assumptions about him. Mom thinks he’s an alcoholic. He’s not an alcoholic. I told her he is a kindergartner compared to how much a partying college student can drink. He just made a bad choice and at least he was at home. 

I haven’t talked to him today and I don’t feel like talking to him. 

My brother is apparently sleeping in his bathroom with vomit next to him?

Its my dad’s birthday too and I guess my dad found him that way and cleaned up the mess.

Little bro’s facebook status says he was taking shots at 1am…

Ugh…happy birthday dad.

My brother came out officially to our parents. There was no crying or screaming. There was a lot of talking, which was great. 

Then some reason the talk of being gay went to what he was doing in college and the future. 

My parents are concerned about the age difference and if his boyfriend would leave him because he is bored with my brother. 

They were very upset about him lying to them and making his friends lie to them. 

But finally after years my brother is out. 

He is relieved as you may imagine. 

I want to thank you guys for all the words of encouragement. I told my brother about you guys and he’s appreciative. 

I didn’t want to make that previous text too long but I wanted to add some more things. 

We have 2 Aunts and an Uncle is are supportive of us as gay people. They could care less about us being gay. 

We have prepared for the day when my brother would come out. We have played out so many situations. He does have support just in case he is shunned or kicked out of the house. 

Oh and I didn’t self harm. 

Sorry for my poor typing skills today.

Before: 

Everything was leading up to my brother’s outing. There were so many clues and my Dad was getting closer. It wasn’t until he questioned me on things addressed to my brother’s boyfriend that he knew what was going on. It was my nonresponse that triggered it. It was me saying ‘why don’t you ask him’ that said ‘he’s gay’. Then he asked me a couple days later about Key West. I don’t know how he knows about that. My brother and his boyfriend go to Key West many times a year. My brother tells them he’s going to Wichita, Ks.  Also when my brother’s “friend” comes and picks him up. The “friend” is never at the drive way, they are at the street corner, way off a couple houses down. I mean, come little brother, you got to be smarter than that. 

After: I hugged my mom when I saw her and told her I still loved her. I told her I was extremely upset about her taking steps back when I thought she was making great progress. 

We apologized to each other. 

I found out today that our boss has a gay sister and brother and her parents are very accepting. She wasn’t in but our supervisor told us she is willing to talk to us if we need advice. 

Mom and Dad are now worried about my brother getting STDs and HIV. I told them his doctor knows and he gets tested annually. They are also bad mouthing the boyfriend. Yes, the boyfriend is way older than him but they have been together for 2 years now and they love each other very much. They kept throwing out so many gay men stereotypes, I just shut up and shook my head in disapproval. They are so hard to change. I keep trying to plant seeds but nothing is growing. 

Funny thing that was discussed was how gay men get around with so many other men. I had to tell them all PEOPLE of college, young adult and adults get around. It doesn’t matter what orientation they are. They don’t believe it and believe gay men are the worst. UGH! Frustration!!!! My mom said she wasn’t like that and I said yeah well you only dated Dad and she at that time in college was almost nun like.